Released

Yesterday I was released as the Young Women president of our congregation.  Over the last month since our contract on the house, I have cried a lot about this.  It's so hard to say goodbye to these girls.  They brighten my life and lift me so much.  It has been such a blessing to work with them these past 2 years.  I didn't cry during Sacrament yesterday.  I did cry on the way to ward council, and on the way home, and on the way to church, and just a little when I hugged Pam, but I felt good.  We went home after church and I felt wonderful.  I played with my kids, and Sean and I talked, and we listened to some good music.  I felt fantastic.  I know partly because there is a burden to bear with a lot of responsibility.  It's absolutely worth it, and I know I didn't carry it alone!  But that burden is gone.  I was surprised at how wonderful I felt, because often when I get a release from a calling I have doubts about myself, and whether or not I did a good job.  But I didn't feel any doubts this time. 

A few weeks before my release I had an experience in my calling that was very difficult for me, and I began to doubt my feelings of the past, and wonder what I should do.  Through that experience, I felt my father in heaven teaching me about myself, and about Him.  He loves me, and He is pleased with me and my efforts.  I think that experience is what helped me leave this service feeling well, and without doubting myself. 

I am happy that I still get to go on our Laurel Retreat up in Estes Park on Jan. 28th.  :)  It will be my last "party" with these girls, and I know we're going to have fun. 

Life is good.